fuck you all. i will be whoever i want to be. if i want to be reserved and depressing, i will be. if i want to make a fool of myself, i will. if i want to be too cool to talk to you, i'll do so. don't question my actions, i don't even know why i do them myself. all i know is that i'm sick of making excuses for the way i am. i am a product of my society, of my friends, of my parents, so anything you can possibly blame on me, you can trace back to one of those, a combination of those factors or even to yourself. now i'm going to the pub. and i am going to have fun, damn it.